What is Wrong with Me???

            I sit here in my bed with two dogs and two boys surrounding me after a day FILLED with things!!  I realized just now that I haven’t stopped moving from the time I decided to roll out of bed until now, minus the 5 minutes I took to sit and eat lunch before getting busy.  Why am I so busy?  Well, about a year ago I decided that homeschooling my boys was a really good idea but to do that, as a single mom, I need a new kind of job.  Being the procrastination queen of the century, I waited.  COVID hit, and making my boys homeschool didn’t seem so far-fetched as they sat in front of me every day trying to digest there virtual learning without losing their minds and not driving me crazy with the complete and utter complaining of how awful the experience is.  Of course, now I realize that the stress of COVID, lock down, new experience, and no friends was just too much for these 10-year-old little humans. 

            Fast forward 10 months to now.  We are full on homeschooling, not virtual public schooling, but full on Mom schooling.  I also thought it would be a great idea to do this whilst finishing my own master’s degree AND starting a COUPLE at home businesses.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!  The answer to this comes during a day in which we get to recognize all those that served in the military.  It is ironic that I blame my need to overdue things to my experience in the military.  There were so many times in my career in which I/we were handed WAY too many things, no time to do it, and yet we got it done.  I have no idea how it all worked, but it did.  The irony is now I don’t HAVE to make my life complicated, I just do it cause it seems to make sense.  The idea of the “multitask” takes on a whole new meaning when dealing with military members.  It’s more like infinite, triple, multi astropowered tasking.  If we can do 10 things, why not add 20 more, it might work.  I remember during my time in the Guard, we had medical personal assigned to help pull out hurricane evacuees, give flu shots to the entire 2000-person unit, planning out post hurricane recovery, helping put radio’s on buses, and about 15 other tasks.  The irony is at the time we only had about 100 medical team members.  How did we do all of it?  This was the normal, not the exception.  I learned to overpower every minute and run like crazy to the finish line. 

            As I face the reality of my “training” I want to say thank you to all that served with me and made us all look amazing.  Thanks to all those who served before me and set the precedence and expectation of excellence.  Thanks to all those that have and will serve after me who will take the task and make it even better!  Most, thank you to all the families and service members that sacrificed so much so all the rest of us could keep our freedoms.  What a blessing to be part of it, now I just need to learn how to shut it off every once in a while. 

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